The public response to the “revelation” that Mother Theresa was subject to doubts and long periods of spiritual dryness says more about the spiritual state of our culture than it does about her. People nowadays can’t understand why she would remain a Catholic if she wasn’t “getting off” on it. Where’s the euphoria? Where’s the payoff? If Catholicism was such a “downer” for her, why didn’t she just move on? The idea of suffering for one’s Beloved (human or Divine!) as being a high privilege is meaningless to such people.
(Remember Don Novello’s character of Guido Sarducci, gossip columnist for La Osservatore Romano on Saturday Night Live? In one of his sketches he talked about a plan to remove the cross from Catholic churches because “the logo is a downer.” I’m not sure people could understand the humor of that today.)

It may be that God was calling Mother Theresa, who in “natural” terms was a “cataphatic” contemplative, subject to visions and auditions and sensible consolations, to a different vocation: that of the apophatic contemplative, who encounters God in the barrenness, mortification and dark night of all the faculties of the soul — until he or she learns that the feeling of God’s absence is the very SIGN of His presence. And she may not have fully understood everything that such a call might entail.

We mustn’t forget that Christ felt abandoned by God too: “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” Clearly he never doubted God’s existence; atheists never feel “abandoned by God.” And I’m sure that Mother Theresa never doubted His existence either; she simply mourned His felt absence, like John of the Cross, and Rumi, and so many other mystics always have. So what else is new? What else is new is that people are clueless nowadays about the fundamentals of the spiritual life.

Sincerely,
Charles Upton
cupton@qx.net

I have shredded all of my journals that my family doesn’t need to read after I’m “gone” and I don’t write down anything now that I wouldn’t want to have read by them in the future. My deepest darkest secrets can be spoken aloud to trusted friends and family, when necessary, but they needn’t be written down for perhaps the whole world to read some day. There are just some things that others do not need to know about me. And there are some things that I have thought or felt that are no longer valid and I don’t want to leave them as my legacy.

Off my soapbox now…..

Theresa - yes! Let’s drop those masks indeed. I always struggle with how much do I share (with appropriate people) without it becoming burdensome.

Maybe help for the journey and potential salvation are 2 of the reasons this book was published.

Personaly, I think the book shouldn’t have been published because it seems that Mother Teresa asked for her letters to be destroyed after her death.The Church overrode her wishes.

Lynette, no personal crsis of faith today. I’ve just been thinking about these things and remembering when I have been there. Prayers are always welcome - how about getting the school work done this that I’d like by Monday. As far as the counsel - I was mainly an ear as I heard all kinds of “wisdom” coming out of your mouth.