Time to Pray Away Love
Letting go of my broken marriage is hard for me to do. It’s been years and I still feel connected to my ex.
Albert: Honestly, I never knew I could feel like this. I’m going out of my mind. I want to throw myself off every building in New York. I see a cab and I want to dive in front of it because that way I’ll stop thinking about her.
Hitch: You will. Just give it time.
Albert: That’s just it. I don’t want to. I’ve waited my whole life to feel this miserable. If this is the only way I can stay connected with her, then this is who I have to be.
I can relate to Albert (a scene from the movie Hitch). Although by now, my passion is not self-destructive nor are the thoughts so constantly invasive. In fact, I can go days and weeks without thinking about my ex.
But currently I am going through a Divorce Care group. . . . because I don’t believe that time heals inner wounds. Purposeful grieving does. So right now memories are being dredged. Emotions exposed. Thoughts are chaotic. Tears frequent. Grief is a close friend. I’m listening.
The other day while visiting with a friend, I heard God speak through her. “It’s time to let it go.”
Sigh. It’s time to let it go. But I can’t do this on my own. I need to pray away the (marital) love I have for him. I’d like God to unbreak my heart. I’ll pray for you too.
Entry filed under: divorce, Grief, Main, Music, Prayer. Tags: divorce recovery.
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lynette | . at .
It takes courage to face grief. By surrending to grief you are surrending to God & healing is taking place. Be patient with yourself. Thanks for sharing (you can talk to me anytime)
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sillydoodah | . at .
Tough, tough stuff. Praying for you during this process.
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susan2009 | . at .
Lynette, I know that you are here for me. Thanks. Surrending to God is scary when I’m thinking about it, but feels safe when I actually do it.
Doodah, Thanks for the prayers. It’s cool how when the time was right, God brought together the people, information, events, etc that I needed to deal with this stuff.
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