This Relationship is Never Going Back to OK

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784103_throw_it_backGod recently told me through a friend that “It’s time to let go.”  Time to let go of my broken marriage. The divorce has been final for years. Time to move past the pain. My ex and I are never going back to okay (as far as a marriage relationship goes).

And you know what? That’s okay. I am finally letting myself wake up and feel – even though it hurts. It’s time to step out into a world of my choosing. I’m waking up into a world where people love and like me.

What do you need to admit? What are you holding onto that will never be okay?  Let’s pray for one another, shall we?

Never Going Back To OK (by The Afters)

It’s not the end
But it feels like it is
I’m waking up
Like I’m back from the dead
I’m stepping out
And I feel so afraid
But as long as I’m moving it’s all right

I feel alive
And it hurts for a change
And looking back and it’s hard to believe
That I was cool
With the days that I wasted complacent and tasteless and bored but
That was yesterday

We’re never going back to OK
We’re never going back to easy
We’re never going back to the way it was
We’re never going back to OK

This discontent
Like a slap in the face
Of mediocre
I’ve had enough of this place
This party’s over
And I’m moving away from the frills of you Beverly Hills but that was yesterday

We’re never going back to OK
We’re never going back to easy
We’re never going back to the way it was
We’re never going back to OK

We’re here to stay
This is our time
Our only life
Our chance to live

We’re never going back to OK
We’re never going back to easy
We’re never going back to the way it was
We’re never going back to OK

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6 Comments Add your own

  • 1. lynette  |  . at .

    i couldn’t sleep last night, so I prayed for you. even if i had been able to sleep i woulda prayed for you anyway…

    Reply
    • 2. susan2009  |  . at .

      Lynette, I am so appreciative of your prayers and friendship. Both have been a tremendous help in recovering from this divorce.

  • 3. sillydoodah  |  . at .

    These are incredible posts, Susan. Thank you for sharing this with us. Praying for you.

    Reply
    • 4. susan2009  |  . at .

      Doodah, THANKS for your prayers, presence, and example. All of these help me to continue in my journey.

  • 5. Jasmine  |  . at .

    I went thru a divorce back in 2005 and it turns your life upside down. *hugz*

    Reply
  • 6. susan2009  |  . at .

    Thank you for the understanding, Jasmine. Yes, my whole world collapsed. I have been rebuilding my life and even rebuiliding who I am.

    And you know what? I basically like me now. That’s a good feeling.

    Reply

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